im a 21 yr old male living in tucson, az. this is the first time i have ever asked for help. i don't know where to look, and every day it gets worse. my sadness has started to become anger towards myself, and i sometimes inflict harm on myself to get over it. i wake up everyday thinking about my gf who i broke...
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1. ganmerlad
I wish I was able to just sit there and talk to you. You *know* what is bothering you, what worries you, and where you could end up going if you decide to give up. Be proud of yourself that you have that self-awareness.

I can probably find you a counselor in Tuscon if you have money, but if you don't, my recommendation is to talk to friends. (free counseling is iffy unless you are feeling suicidal, and I don't think you are.)

95% of people end up breaking up with someone they love with all their heart, when they are between the ages of 16 and 25 (the age that people don't know what they want exactly, the age when no one is able to make life-long choices), and it leaves them (you) feeling screwed and completely hopeless. You aren't alone, you will move on and you will find someone else. It isn't a cliche', it is a truth, an absolute truth, that this is one of those situations where "you will look back on it" and be GLAD as hell you didn't take her on for life. I swear to you this is true. I can not prove it to you now, but you will believe me later, and you will be giving this advice to others.

I don't know who you are and I don't know who she is but I absolutely believe that you love her. And hate her. I know you feel like dying. But unless you make it happen, you won't die. You will become older, stronger and wiser. You will move on. It is like a horrible illness that you have to go through, to get to the other side. There IS an other side.

If you have cash to spare, I know people at the U of A that can probably give recommendations for counselors, but I think you have a self awareness doesn't demand it. Ride the wave, talk to friends, and you really will be ok in the end.
2. shaneris5
Contact your county/local mental health agency, and find out what help they can offer. Psychological counselling, with a sliding scale, based on income, is available through many religious organisations, such as Catholic counselling, the Methodist church, the Unitarian Universalists, and sometimes the United Way. You don't have to be a member. (U.S.A.) Google: "clinics; mhmr; (your city); (your state)" I have been variously informed that the phone numbers 211, 311, and 411, are appropriate.

I suggest that you view section 20, on sexual abuse of minors, at http://www.ezy-build.nt.nz/~shaneris Depression is addressed in section 2; see page R first, then male depression, and later, the rest of the section.

Self harm; section 16; use the substitutes, and contact the hotlines. Anger management; section 4. More than 2 drinks acts as a depressant; see section 52.

ABUSE: See http://www.drdrew.com/ on abuse & http://www.burstingthebubble.com/ & http://www.reachout.com.au/home.asp
3. CathRun
Are you able to work?
I would first look in the phone book perhaps for a counselor? Sounds like you need one. And I think you should definitely talk to just your regular old family doctor...if he's any good he will get you a referral and maybe give you a little hit of some meds to help take your edge off...
Call the suicide hotline if you start thinking really wacky, okay? This is nothing to mess with.
4. palmers126
I am not familiar with AZ but, try contacting:

COPE Community Services
82 S. Stone Avenue
Tucson, AZ 85701
Phone: (520)792-3293
Fax: (520)792-4336

You didn't mention whether you have insurance or not. COPE provides services for all. I think you will find the services and help your looking from COPE. Let me know how it turns out.
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